everything suckss

life sucks.. the decisions u make.. no matter wad.. u will regret it.. im dying.. yet no ones gonna help meee.. wheee.. no talking.. no smiling animore.. u wun see the smiling happy john no more!!..



fuck this life.. i hate itt.. one wrong decision.. and your whole life breaks downn..



doubt u will read this but yeahh..



well.. i've thought this throughh.. thought this out really badlyy.. if this is hows its going to be.. then im gonna breakdown.. sooner or later.. u say ill be like ernest.. well.. truth being?.. i dun wan to.. i wan to be that fren.. that good frenn.. that close frenn.. that person.. who u turn to.. hus shoulder u can lean on.. whos tears u can share.. who cries with u when ur down.. then plays with u when ur happy.. i wanna be that frenn.. not that boyyfrennn.. not that more than a frenn.. not anithing.. all i wan is friendship.. right now.. even if u wan more.. i dun.. i wanna be frenss.. i wanna be frens!!.. thats all i want.. and not just frens like. .fren fren.. frens as in good frens!.. best frens!.. what i said.. let it be words in the sand.. let it be blown away with the wind.. let our friendship be carved on rocks.. where no matter wad the words cannot be taken away..

i typed that about a month ago.. thats how long its been.. welll.. been ages since i last blogged.. so yeah.. sorry to those that actually read the whole new world yeahh..

anyways.. life has been sucky.. crappy.... well.. someone told me.. friendship withers like a flower.. true?.. i choose to believe it.. coz with everything thats been going on.. thats how it is.. but i wan to savour that friendship.. i dunno.. why did i do it?.. i dunno.. confused... well.. if this is how its gonna be.. my life is gonna be crapp.. so yeahh.. i missed that amazing friendship.. well.. im hoping its worth savouring.. and hoping it will go back to the way it was before.. but hoping.. hope hope hope.. mite lead to nothing.. guess if u believe it will happened.. u want it badly enough.. im guessing it will happen... I MISS MY FREN... bring her backkk...


sad life mann..
aniwaes.. been writing poemss.. not very good.. or not?.. i dunno i just write what i feel.. wrote 2 poems.. one the first line given by farid.. one by ernest... btw the date is wrong.. today is the 22july2007..

GONE
And he goes on,
on and on until its gone.
For the once very strong bond,
has disappeared and is long gone.

Savour every little friendship,
for brittle is this relationship.
Like words in the sand,
This wonderful friendship has come to an end.

One wrong move is all you need,
to leave your wound open to bleed.
For the wound left is so deep,
that leaves you in the corner, starting to weep.

May i return to the beginning?
The once bright light is suddenly dimming
Take all this pain away,
and let it return to the way it was yesterday


THOSE TIMES
Everything you say to me,
are words as true as it can be.
Say those words and set me free,
to a wonderful world with so much to see

Be there with me in the wonderful place,
and let me see your beautiful face.
standing out beneath the space,
crying, smiling, filled with grace.

Leave me bedazzled and mesmerized,
for only now have i realised,
that our friendship has been jeopardised,
till we've become, as cold as ice.

All i can do is hope it vain
sobbing crying hiding my pain.
now my life is so mundane,
sitting all alone, in this small dark lane.