fights, quarrels, arguments.

is it a trend, a cycle for such things to happen?
f
irst it was garner and ernest, to me and li chin, now, gerald and sasa.
these things, arguments, fights, everything, is it planned? is it all meant to happen? is it all a cycle? when one cycle ends, the other picks up? Barely 3 days i was gone, and with just a flash, so many things happened, is it meant to be this way? it hurts to see close friends this way. it HURTS even more, when you are one of the 2 parties. yet, why does it continue to happen? the situation between me and lc is getting better, yet this has to happen, why??

Perhaps arguments are gods way of telling us, if they are your true friends, they WILL come back to you. eventually they will, if the sense of affection is there, the love, the bond, no matter what might be thrown at you, it can always be better. Perhaps arguments are a test, fights are a test, a test of your friendship. i always feel, each time you argue with someone, it allows you to get to know that person a wee bit better, but whos to say, that one argument may lead to a lifetime of coldness towards one another, eternal hatred towards one another, perhaps.


and to that someone, why gain sympathy with the one you love? keep denying it, but you and i both know what you have done. betrayal, who betrayed who, who deserved this? no one is perfect, im far from being spared, sure ive done what ive done, but what have you done? keeping the truth from someone, for your benefit? to make me feel the worse i can ever feel? you scolded me for being emo, well look here, whos the emo one now? when one person is down, the mood of the whole group brought down along with you. THINK ABOUT IT. i aint saying im perfect, ive done no wrong, but im morally right, what you've done, u should be happy i have not said anything to her about it. betrayal. think bout what u have done, then come talk to me about betrayal. friends? more like feigning every action, every move. watch what you say. BASTARD. i could go on, on and on, but spare me the trouble of typing, you're not worth my effort, suck up to your friends, gain their trust. Sometimes when you do something wrong, it has a way of getting back to you when you least expect it. thats when it will hurt the most.

sorry people who actually read this.. hear me rant, im pissed, sorry!