200th post

Hurt

All that runs through my mind is you
Yet you don't even have a clue.
I'm the one who made all this true,
yet i'm the only one who is feeling blue.

why why, oh why did i do it?
why put myself through all this shit?
I could have just left it and not cared one bit
yet i brought it up and let myself get hit.

It was so awkward when i saw you that day,
There was just nothing for me to say.
even later when i went to play,
all i saw was you, even though you're so far away.

Now i'm sitting here feeling so lost.
what i did was for the better, but at what cost?
Will that once best friend still be there?
Or will I be left, with nothing but despair.

`and i despise that i adore you.