The burden is too big.

I don't wanna give up on her..

but seeing her lying on the hospital bed.. suffering.. she was in painn.. yet i couldn't do anything..

I felt so heart pain when i saw her.. not i wanna say.. shes giving up.. =(.. i feel super sad.. i was sitting by her bed holding her hand just now.. she was so weak.. so restless.. could tell she was uncomfortable.. in pain.. she was breathing heavily.. couldn't talk properly.. she was mumbling.. she kept fidgiting.. I was so sad.. i couldn't stop crying.. she was giving up.. i could see it.. My mum and uncle brought me to buy white shirts.. told my sis to look for nice photos of mama.. like they've given up on her.. I've not given up!.. but it pains to see her like that.. really.. i sometimes feel like scolding my uncle and mum.. shes still alive.. why u all speak like shes going to die.. why are you giving up on her?.. i dun wan to give up on her.. i believe she'll live to at least when kor kor gets married.. she wun die!.. SHE WUN!.. =(.

but their giving up.. and she is too..
i haven accepted the fact.. i can't see her going.. really..
i can't..

I couldn't stop my tears from flowing.. even though i was there the whole day.. my tears still flowed even at the end of the day.. =(..

Mama, you be strong okay?. you'll get through this. i know you will. Though everyone has given up on you. i haven. so pls get well.

`Letting go of someone is pain to the heart, watching her suffer in pain, is worst.