tired out

i'm tired. really just tired.

today during CEM, mrs thomas went on and on about the things we needed to put into our proposal.. i nodded.. i understood.. but it was just so overwhelming you know?

also, being in a different group with the people i'm comfortable with, is now taking its toll on me.
seeing how happy the other grp is.. or rather.. the other half of the class, they're so happy, yet my grp is so work oriented.. so bored.. no fun at all.. i chose it this way.. thats what i always tell myself.. i made the compromise..

also, having to put up a happy face and brighten everyone's mood despite myself being totally drained and exhausted.. seeing a smile on someone elses face just makes my day that bit better.

theres so much work, so little time..
the thing is, i don't feel a least bit comfortable with my grp. and that actually leads to no mood to do work which in turn leads to bad performance..

seeing how people like rosanne and sheeny who put so much effort in, even though they're known to be lazy and not contribute and not do their work.. yet they contributed.. they handed their part in on time.. and me.. being the leader.. should set an example.. shouldn't i?

i just wished i was in the other half of the class.. they have so much fun, and they're comfortable.
oh how i wish.. oh well..

on the bright side, things are going good with charm.. anddd.. group members are doing their work.. =)

`just call my name, and i'll be there