outcast?

well SIP is over.. ain't gonna blog much about it. i'm lazy. hahaha.

anyways. i haven really blogged. just today something bothered me a lot. basically, today kat was groupless for one of our projects, her group just sorta offloaded her?.. thats as much as i know. don't know what exactly happened.

just felt kinda sad?.. i mean.. just because your group has to be better, u offload the thrash?. metaphorically speaking that is. So who picks up your thrash?. Worst still, how would you feel if you're the one being offloaded(i don't know if it's one or 2 words)? How would you feel?

I'll tell you, you'll feel like shit, like you're trying your best to just find someone who'll take you in, who will accept you. Fine, from what i know i don't deny she's not been up to standard in the last sem, but that doesn't mean you should just let her go and let it be someone elses problem? Don't you think it's very selfish on your part?. I mean hey, this are all opinions, how you see it might be different.

anyway, so much said. kat's now in our group. felt bad for her. Right now to be completely honest, i feel it. Constantly trying to fit in somewhere. It's like you walk into the Lecture theatre looking for a friend or someone to sit with, you realise you don't have a "clique" to sit with. No matter how you try, you'll never fit in. The fact of the matter is you never belonged in the first place, so for you to penetrate and be accepted is just hard. Sure, everyone treats you as a friend, it's just you'll never fit and you'll never be anything more than that. Nuff said.

I'm aspiring to be a writer, i think.
oh well.

the politics in life.

`maybe these simple words will do best to best explain.