The one

Today I watched an episode of One Tree Hill.

This line hit me "When all your dreams come true, who do want standing next to you?"

I asked myself, at this very moment in time, who will that person be? Only one person popped up in my head. Her name is Drusilla. Drusilla Lee is my closest friend. She's the special girl I've talked about in my previous posts. She's not your everyday girl. She's special and she's one of a kind. I just wished she knew how special she was. She changed my life for sure.

My friend asked me this "if she's so amazing, why aren't you taking a shot at her? Why aren't you going for her?" At the point in time, I looked up at him and smiled.

The truth is that I honestly didn't know. This girl has changed my life but to her, I'm just another person in her life. Have I made a difference in her life? Perhaps. It only hit me today how special and how much she meant to me. Everytime I had a piece of good news or something that made my day, I'd pick up my phone and drop her a text. I felt happy doing so. Today, I realised that.

Today I also realised that I may not mean as much to her as she does to me. It hit me that while I always shared the good news with her, it may not matter as much to her. So how then do you know whether a friend is truly sincere and truly cares? I asked myself this. Again, I don't have an answer. Like i said before, my conclusion: You don't mean as much to her as she means to you. Being drawn to that conclusion, I asked myself " So why do you keep thinking that you do? Why then do you keep wishing and hoping that you do mean something to her?" And my answer "Because whether she cares as much as I do, shes knows I care and that's good enough for me"

I remember saying to a friend when we were playing a simple game of "Shoot,Shag,Marry" I told her that one day I'd marry Drusilla. I still believe that. Even if she doesn't step into my life again from this day forth, she has already made a mark on my life.

That brings me to my post, it's funny how someone can make such a difference in your life. Yet to them, you're just a stepping stone. How then do you know if this person is "the one"? My answer to that " ". I don't have one. This is just one of the many things that go through a person's head everyday. How to you tell the difference from a friend and a lover? How to you distinguish that?

She's special. I'd give anything to know that I've made such an impact on her life as she has done to mine. She's a friend and an awesome one I might add. I'd never give that up in a million years and I'd never spoil it with the 3 simple words. This post is for her. Even if she never comes across it in her entire life.

This is how I felt Wednesday 23rd March 2011. 3.37pm.

She is special. Drusilla, you're special. You're my friend.