welcome back

haven blogged in a while. haven had the time rather. anyway. here are some updates.

charm thing.. not going too well.. i mean. .some days it feels okay.. some days it feels really weird.

should i just let go?

was thinking about it that day.. and i tell you. radio really plays tricks on your mind?. well basically when i was thinking about it that day in the car, i decided to turn down the radio so i could really think. then when i finally decide to turn on the radio.. it played "If I let you go- Westlife". totally like.. wahh laoo.

anyways, i just miss the times where she would come and talk to me. like as friends or normally, now the only times we talk is when we're doing work.

On a happier note, i'm getting closer with my classmates.. esp yvonnes grp.. think they're damn cute.. seriously.. their whole grp is like. when i'm with them i always laugh at their randomness and their cuteness.. and they never fail to make me happy.. esp drusilla.. i tell you. .shes like. happy happy happy person.. hahaha.. then theres the rest.. they're all super nice ppl.. really thankful to have classmates like them..

anyway.. CEM is going fine.. but i'm kinda feeling the heat?.. the stress and all.. and also i kinda find it a bit hard to feel stressed and angry.. and not show it.. u know.. u wouldn't want ppl to see your sulky and glum and sian face.. so you smile whenever you can.. plus i'm the chairperson. so i have to set an example.. if i breakdown. everyone will be like.. hai.. i duno.. but i'm kinda feeling it now.. the other subjects are ookay i guess.

who reads this blog anyway?. was contemplating if i should tell anyone in my class about this blog, although michelle might know.. but the rest?. should i let them see what i truly feel?.

My classmates see me as a nice guy as a leader, but honestly speaking, i don't fit those roles.. i'm no where near being a nice guy.. i tink i'm like really a horrible person.. then like. .as for the leadership.. the only reason they would see me that way is coz i try to get along with everyone and i do my work coz i have to.. not coz i like it. matthias kinda changed my poly life and i'm thankful to him for that..

i'm not who you think i am i guess.. am i? someone tell me.

AND FYI.. i'm not emo pls!. hahaha.. just voicing out thoughts here.. (THIS IS TO THE AWEZUM ZAO).

till next time.
Cheers..

`i will never know, what my life would be holding you close to me.