Awkward much?

Today was bad.. or rather it was half and half?..

it was both a good and a bad day..
more bad i guess?.

well basically today was the NE comm debrief meeting.. i reached earliest. thats besides the point. anyways.. well. i never felt more lonely in class than today.. other and hanjie and shulin who talked to me.. the rest were like total strangers.. i hardly talked to charm and the whole grp.. and also yvonne and the whole grp.. even when they left there was no bye. or like cyah later or something.. it was just.. disappeaar. i dunno.. it felt damn awkward. .like really.. i never felt more apart from the class.. basically the whole 1 hr plus. i said less than 10 words to the whole of charms grp and yvonnes grp.. not including rambert uh.. then later when i left to meet mum and sis and aunt for lunch.. then i went to safra where yvonnes grp were playing. i felt even more "extra". i felt so out you know.. i mean.. maybe its me.. but the feeling was different already.. like something happened that made me awkward with them.. i dunno what though.. but i dunno.. today was just REALLY REALLY awkward. for me that is..

on the happier note.. i got A for CEM.. THANKFULLY. also.. charm looked REALLY REALLY pretty.. i was totally like mesmerized.. her new hairdo and all.. there was like a glow to her.. sadly i din talk to her at all today.. but on happier note.. played pool and billiard with rambert and jianyong.. which was quite fun.. honestly.. haven had this much fun playing pool in a while.. also ermm.. just had fun i guess..

but the wait for the bus and the lack of a earphone and the full bus totally ruined my mood.. oh well.. it ended sad i guess.. well.. hope everything gets better.. though it probably wun. i dunno.. drus u reading this?.. hai.. how?.. i dunno what to do..

feel weird now and i dun really know who to talk to about it..

till next time..

`you got me hypnotised so mesmerized