dreams

what are dreams really?

just a figment of your imagination?

something you desire so bad that it only appears in your dreams?

just the opposite of reality?.

the thing is.. no one will ever know. hahaha.. okay i know that was uncalled for.. but i'm sitting here in the Marina Bay Sands hotel. and i'm bored.. its like my 5th time here?.. its getting boring already.. i'm overlooking marina barrage now.. which looks really really crowded.. like seriously really crowded.. hahaha.. random fact.. boredom kills really..

anyways.. yesterday something weird happened.. i probably spend 24/7 thinking of charmaine. like honestly.. call me crazy.. but yeah.. thats a fact. i'm crazy bout her i know.. anyways.. yest.. or rather this morning.. my bro woke me up at like 4 am?. to pick him up from downstairs in tower 2 or the hotel.. so i did.. i went down.. i sat there.. the same place i sat with drus that last time i waited for someone.. i was dead sleepy.. like literally sleep walking.. the weird thing is.. as i sat there.. charmaine wasnt on my mind.. instead someone else was.. it was weird. i mean. the thought has crossed my mind.. but i never thought i'd be thinking bout her.. don't get me wrong.. i'm still crazy bout charm.. just that few minutes. my mind was about someone else. which was.. i would say.. interesting?. anyways.. that brings me to dreams.. i went up and fell straight to sleep.. thats when i dreamt of that particular person..

i never thought i'd be.. but i was with this person in the dream.. we weren't together.. but i was really happy with her.. and in the dream. matthias and charm were together.. so i dunno.. it was abit weird.. but i honestly say. i was happpy.. as happy as i was when i dreamt of charm.. so when i woke up.. i started thinking alot. hmm. hahaha. oh well.. how would you define dreams?. if you read this?. the few ppl that do. leave your thoughts!

but still i'm crazy bout charm. just looking at her photo on fb reminds me of how much i miss her and how long i haven seen her.. i totally miss her. really. though things aren't exactly going as awesome as i would have hoped for it to be. i just miss her alot. hahaha..

hahaha. btw.. was looking at my archives.. realised and found my "poems"..
this was back in my secondary school days..when i had the inspiration to write.. so corny some of them.. have a good read though.. realise i last time really damn emo.. write poem siahh!. HAHA.. leave your comments!. =)

PAIN
The problems we share,
with friends that care.
Who share the pain and despair
when its sometimes difficult to bear

If you only know how i feel
now it's hard to even have a meal
I aint a man of steel
get me out of this heart breaking ordeal!

Perhaps friendship withers like a flower
This sweet wonderful friendship has turned sour
Every second, every minute, every hour
is filled with hurt greater than any power

All the times we had together,
has gone and flown like a birds feather
Life without you is so much sadder
Will we ever resolve this matter?

GONE
And he goes on,
on and on until its gone
For the once very strong bond
Has disappeared and is long gone

Savour every little friendship,
for brittle is this relationship,
Like words in the sand
This friendship has come to an end

One wrong move is all you need,
to leave your wound open to bleed
For the wound left is so deep,
it leaves you in the corner, starting to weep

May i return to the beginning?
The once bright light is suddenly dimming
Take all this pain away
and let it return to the way it was yesterday

THOSE TIMES
Everything you say to me,
are words as true and it can be
Hearing those words set me free,
to a wonderful world with so much to see

Be there with me in the wonderful place
and don't hide your beautiful face.
Standing out beneath the space,
crying, smiling, filled with grace

Leave me bedazzled and mesmerized
for only now have i realised,
that our dear friendship has been jeopardised,
till we've now become as cold as ice

Now all i can do is hope in vain
Sobbing, Crying, Hiding my pain
now my life has turned mundance
Sitting all alone in this small dark lane.


HAHAHA. did you enjoy your read?. hope you did. till next time!
p.s. you changed my life, i know i have changed yours too, be it good or bad.
CYAH PEEPS!

`I would do anything, girl you need only ask